And so I have had Sex Ray Specs on special for the duration - only 99 cents at all major retailers. It has been a rough month, but, perhaps, some short homoerotic tales will make it a little bit better. Be warned, though, some are sweet, some are sad, and many are dark...
But it is summer, and bite sized fiction is the best thing for filling in those lazy moments.
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Monday, June 20, 2016
Thursday, April 28, 2016
We Interrupt Your Regularly Scheduled Programming...
Life (well, pollen) has been kicking my ass the last couple weeks. Every time I sit down at the computer to try and write I either hack up a lung or sneeze a quart of goo all over the keyboard...thus the next chapter in Onna Bugeisha has been delayed by plague. But fear not, I feel semi-human today. Well, as long as I don't breathe too deeply, I think I broke a rib coughing last night :(
To make up for the lack of new chapters I have put my anthology of short fiction, Sex Ray Specs, on sale for just $.99 for a limited time. Not a lot to pay for over 50,000 words and a dozen stories ranging from tender to transgressive. Okay, to be fair, most of them are fairly twisted...I am fairly twisted, so it just makes sense my stories would be as well.
And, to sweeten the pot, I thought I would post a little unpublished snippet of flash fiction, just because I hate not meeting my chapter posting goals.
To make up for the lack of new chapters I have put my anthology of short fiction, Sex Ray Specs, on sale for just $.99 for a limited time. Not a lot to pay for over 50,000 words and a dozen stories ranging from tender to transgressive. Okay, to be fair, most of them are fairly twisted...I am fairly twisted, so it just makes sense my stories would be as well.
And, to sweeten the pot, I thought I would post a little unpublished snippet of flash fiction, just because I hate not meeting my chapter posting goals.
MUSE
When the world is quiet and still he
comes to me. Tendrils of power drift around him in a graceful,
kinetic dance, arcing from his hands to my flesh, burning their way
through my synapses, at odds with the frigid bite of his skin. The
soft smokey murmur in my ear pins me as certainly as too dark eyes
and all thoughts of protest dissipate. He smells of ginger and
cloves, sharp, seductive, hypnotic. Glass, stone, metal and bone
woven into shaggy locks sing their own melody and I'm drowning under
the onslaught, sinking into a place only he can drive me. When the
whispers turn dark he dances, twisting and twirling, horns scribing
the text into my flesh as the heady tang of copper mingles with
spice. Then he smiles, a slight quirk of his lip, the tip of a pink
tongue flicking out to taste my fears, my dreams, my essence encoded
in my DNA. I would run, I would hide, I would surrender my soul for
words of pleasure and pain. The rustle of finished pages, the itch of
newly healed flesh, the secret of my success, he follows his own
path. As for myself, I live to sleep and dream of my other half, this
cruel symbiote without whom I am lost.
And, of course, the sale links...because what is the point of telling you about a sale without giving you the means to get in on it!
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
Onna Bugeisha - Chapter Six
Sorry for the delay...real life decided to interfere with my twice a week chapters. So, a bit late, on to Chapter Six. For those who may be just joining us, you can start with Chapter One
Dai Sho Shou
Even the most skilled
application of cosmetics left Jun shaking his head in disgust. His
wounds had healed, but one side of his face still drooped like melted
wax. There was no way he could go on stage looking like this. He'd
end up cast as a crone or a demon. His hand shook with repressed rage
as he penned a note to the theater explaining his extended absence.
Even more disturbing, there had been no word from Hiroshi. His lover
had abandoned him to his fate.
Jun knelt before his
small shrine, clapped his hands three times, then bowed his head in
heartfelt prayer. “Amaterasu, most beautiful of goddesses, you have
abandoned me to a life of rejection and ugliness. Tsukiyomi you have
turned your back on me, separating me from my beloved. Susanoo, I
pray you heed my request. Give me revenge on those who have hurt and
abandoned me. Where once I wielded beauty, now let me summon your
powers of chaos and destruction.” He lit a single stick of incense
as an offering, then turned away to plot the downfall of the house of
Murakami.
* * *
Tomorrow stretched into a
week, then into two, and Kenshin still found reasons to delay his
trip to the pleasure district. His training with Hiroshi had settled
into a comfortable pattern. Evenings in his formerly staid household
now echoed with laughter, and early morning training now commenced
well after sunrise. The nights, however, were no less torturous. His
apprentice was a young man, with a young man's desires. Night after
night he resolved to find himself a mistress before he snapped and
spoiled the budding friendship he had grown to cherish. But each dawn
he found an excuse not to visit the teahouses.
During his morning
meditation Kenshin pondered the reasons for his hesitation. In part,
it was fear he would be unable to perform with a woman. He had never
felt the attraction to the opposite sex other men did. Even his
master, who had so loving introduced him to the world of sexual
pleasure, had a wife and a concubine as well. But the intricacies of
the female mind were a puzzle he couldn't decode. If he were honest
with himself, he also feared he would enjoy it. Far too many warriors
squandered their time and money with the ladies of the willow world.
And then there was Hiroshi. It was becoming more and more difficult
for Kenshin to hide his attraction to the younger man. The last thing
he wanted was to shortcut any chance of a relationship because he was
too impatient to wait until his feelings were returned.
* * *
The folded envelope
seemed innocuous. The seal of the royal family, much less so. Kenshin
turned it over and over, trying to weigh the consequences opening it
would surely entail. Finally he broke the seal and unfolded the
delicate paper, pausing to appreciate the intricate calligraphy before
concentrating on the message itself.
Hiroshi found him staring
off into space, a sheet of paper clenched in his fist. “Yakushi-san,
are you alright?”
Blank eyes turned in his
direction, and his master managed a single strangled word. “Omai.”
"I refuse. My father
might have been able to force me to come here, but he cannot force me
into a marriage.”
"Not you, me.” It was
clear the very thought horrified the samurai. “I knew this would
lead to ruin.”
In all honesty it didn't
seem like such a tragedy to the youth. After all, his master was a
grown man with no family to push him into an alliance. He was free to
decline in a way Hiroshi was not. “So say no, if it bothers you so
much. I am sure she doesn't want to marry you either.” He pried the
letter out of tense fingers, smoothing the page before scanning its
contents.
"See? It is the
emperor's sister. I cannot refuse.” Kenshin's whole body drooped.
“I have to at least meet with her, and I don't know if I will be
able to refuse after that. This is all your father's fault.”
"Most everything awful
is,” Hiroshi agreed.
"Glad to know you hate
me so much.”
"I didn't mean it that
way.”
"You made it clear from
the moment you arrived you wanted nothing to do with me. Your
father's plan to pair us up was a mistake. I wish I had never agreed,
then I would still be content being alone. Now I long for things I
cannot have, and need to consider a match I never wanted.”
"You long for me?”
The whispered query forced Kenshin to turn and face his student. The
surprise on his face lit something deep in his soul, a feeling he
fought to suppress before it undid him completely.
"How could I not?”
Hiroshi struggled to
respond, but the words caught in his throat. And then the moment had
passed and Kenshin was gone. Leaving him with nothing but the
ill-fated missive as proof the encounter ever happened.
* * *
Jun pushed aside the mass
of shredded garments until he uncovered his stored kimono, carefully
wrapped in soft silk and nestled in cedarwood boxes. He sent up a
small prayer of thanks, losing them would have been a blow he
couldn't recover from. After much contemplation, he decided on his
third best kimono, sorting through obi until he found a pairing
appropriate for the season. Even in this, precision was key.
Having
avoided it for as long as possible, he began to pick through the rest
of the broken and scattered treasures, carefully packing up a few
ornaments and a surprisingly intact box of face powder. Everything
else would remain here, in this place of broken dreams. Once he left,
he would not be returning.
The boxes and bags were
transferred to a waiting cart, a veil carefully positioned to hide
the mark of his failure, and Jun shut the door on his past.
Afternoons in the
pleasure district are lazy, leisurely affairs. In this closed world
of women the highlight of the day is gossiping the long hours away in
the baths. From the outside the willow world appears to slumber
behind its walls, recovering from the revelries of the night before.
In reality, this is the most cherished part of the day, when hopes
and dreams are laid bare and all eventualities are possible. The
arrival of a curtained palanquin during these hours was unexpected
enough to set all tongues wagging. When that palanquin stopped
outside a teahouse known for unconventional sexual practices,
curiosity overcame all rivalries. Women who normally passed without
so much as a nod of acknowledgment put their heads together and
whispered ever more outlandish theories. The only thing the pillow
girls could agree on was no one recognized the heavily veiled woman
who slipped from its curtained privacy into the teahouse. Her wealth
was obvious, hair impeccably coifed and clad in a kimono worth more
than all of them combined. Why such a person would visit that
particular house was debated in ever rising voices. The most obvious
answer, a husband with habits no decent woman could stomach, was
almost immediately discarded. Such a refined creature would no more
discuss such things than she would run naked through the streets.
Most wives negotiated their husband's liasons through scrolls and
servants, even the most mundane. The lack of subterfuge had all the
women on edge. Something darker was obviously at work.
Inside the shadowed
confines of the teahouse Jun proceeded to plead his case. Using all
the skill he had acquired in his time onstage, he struck just the
right balance between misery and vengeance, hoping to sway the
proprietor to his side.
"He swore we were
eternal lovers. And then he abandoned me.” A delicate handkerchief
disappeared behind the veils to dab at watery eyes. “Now I am
spoiled for any other.”
"Why come to me? There
are many houses that would love to have a lady of your refinement. My
customers have base appetites. Your delicate sensibilities will
enflame them to greater outrages just to see your reaction.”
"I have no choice,”
Jun's voice dropped to a breathy whisper. “I cannot allow another
to penetrate my jade gate, and I have no wish to risk becoming
enamored of any man. But, I am now without resources, and that means
I must compromise. I will accept being used in the way men pleasure
each other. Would you have customers interested in such things?”
"I have customers
interested in all manner of perversion. I am sure I can keep you busy
enough to forget your heartbreak. I assume you would prefer separate
quarters?”
"It would be more
comfortable for all of us, I'm sure. Still, beggars can't be
choosers. I will take whatever you are willing to give me.”
The proprietress
carefully packed a long iron pipe with tobacco, applying a coal to
the bowl and puffing out clouds of sour smoke. “One of my girls
recently left us to marry. Her lover kept her in luxury during her
time here. Her house is empty now, I'll have the servants clean it in
preparation for your arrival.”
Tuesday, March 29, 2016
Onna Bugeisha - Chapter Five
It is Tuesday already - that means it is time for a new chapter! In case you are just joining us, here is the link to Chapter One...for the rest of you, Chapter Five awaits.
Interlude
In his home under the
ocean, Susanoo capered with glee. After centuries of searching the
key to regaining his father's favor had finally appeared. In response
to his mood the seas foamed, monstrous waves toppling fishing fleets
and washing away villages. The people crowded into the shrines,
praying to Amaterasu to calm her brother's ire and protect them.
The sun goddess stretched
languidly. She was torn between her desire to save her people, and
her aversion to spending time in Susanoo's presence. Duty won out and
she reluctantly made her way to his underwater home to plead her
case.
"Brother, calm
yourself. You threaten to destroy all that our father created.”
"Like I care about
those puny islands or the pitiful worms who inhabit them. My grand
plan will soon take effect, then the people's hearts will turn to me
and you will be forgotten.
"Unlikely. Beauty will
always triumph over brutality.” Amaterasu turned her back on her
sibling and ascended to her rightful place in the heavens.
Dai Go Shou
Dawn spread fingers of
fire across the heavens, ribbons of rosy light painting abstract
patterns on the shoji and rousing Hiroshi from a restless sleep.
"Time for morning
kata.” Kenshin's too cheery greeting rattled the bones of his
apprentice's skull.
"It's barely dawn. Why
do we have to start so early?” Hiroshi groaned, pulling the covers
over his face and snuggling deeper into the futon.
"The day is most
productive when it starts with exercise.” Kenshin yanked the covers
off his slumbering apprentice, prodding him off the futon with his
foot. “We rise at this time every day, I'm sure in time you will
get used to it.”
"I seriously doubt
that.” Hiroshi scrubbed a hand across his eyes, squinting up at the
mirthful face of his master. “You are getting far too much
enjoyment out of this.”
"What do you usually do
in the morning?”
"I sleep through the
morning, like any civilized person.” The curt reply was a sharp
contrast to the whirlwind hair and pillow creases marring otherwise
perfect cheekbones. “Couldn't we skip morning practice and start
after lunch?”
"And then you'll want
to wait until evening. You've spent enough years dawdling in bed,
time to actually do something.” A strong hand latched onto
Hiroshi's rumpled yukata and heaved him to his feet. “Your father
expects me to turn you into a warrior. Get dressed and meet me in the
dojo. The sooner we start, the sooner you get breakfast.”
The strappy ties on his
hakama were a puzzle he couldn't decode in his half asleep state.
Forty minutes passed before Hiroshi entered the dojo, hair roughly
scraped back into a bushy tail, hakama tied in an impatient knot
barely restraining his crumpled yukata. The sight of his new master
peacefully meditating, hair and garments perfectly arranged, was
enough to drive him to despair.
"I see you finally made
it.” Dark eyes opened to study his reluctant student. “Tomorrow I
will expect you to join me for meditation. Clarity of mind is crucial
for productive training.”
"Clarity of mind
assumes I am actually awake,” Hiroshi quipped. “I'm not sure that
is possible so early in the morning.”
Kenshin's laugh was open
and unexpected. “Let's get started.” He selected a bokken from
the weapons rack. “Show me what you know.” He handed the wooden
sword to his student, ignoring the electric tingle that rushed
through him when their fingers brushed.
Hiroshi wobbled through
the first of the simple kata he remembered, conscious of the poor
showing he was making. As much as he disliked the warrior arts he
wanted to make a good impression on the man who was giving up so much
to train him. His attention was focused on Kenshin's reaction,
further distracting him from what he should have been doing.
"Just stop,” Kenshin
snapped. “Obviously we need to start at the beginning.” He
snatched the bokken from lax fingers. “Lesson number one, how to
properly hold a sword. Like this, see, all the work is done by these
fingers, the others are just a guide.”
He handed the weapon back
and watched critically as his apprentice tried to duplicate what he
had been shown. “Better, but more space between your hands. It's a
lever, you get more power that way.” Calloused fingers wrapped
around Hiroshi's pampered digits, sparking another frisson at the
contact.
The next few hours passed
in a blur. When Kenshin finally called a halt the bokken needed to be
pried out of his student's hands. “I think I'll be doing that cut
in my sleep,” Hiroshi grumbled.
"Just make sure you
soak your hands after we eat. I wouldn't want you to be unable to
practice tomorrow.”
"Are we done for
today?” The hopeful look directed in Kenshin's direction had him
feeling momentarily guilty.
"We're done for this
morning. Let's get something to eat and then we'll work on hand to
hand skills for awhile.”
"How many of hours do
you practice each day?”
"That depends on my
duties. Eight to ten hours when I'm home, less if we're in the
field.”
"Just kill me now,”
Hiroshi declared. “There's no way I'll survive the week.”
* * *
The daimyo stared at the
captain of his guard in disbelief. “Yes, Hiroshi's assignation was
unseemly. That does not give you leave to assault his whore. The
issue was settled, but now...well, now I'm waiting for the backlash.
If this turns messy it is on your head.”
"But if you'd seen him.
All painted up like a geisha and proud of it. Vanity like that is
understandable in a woman, in a man it's an insult.”
"At least tell me you
didn't kill him.” The daimyo's hand clenched on the hilt of his
katana. The urge to punish this man for undermining his plan was
nearly overwhelming. Several deep calming breaths passed while he
waited for an answer.
"He was breathing when
we left. Do you honestly expect me to go check on the creature?”
"Check on him. Get him
to a healer if need be. Hiroshi will fly to his defense if he finds
out and then all my efforts to separate them will be for naught. If
you need further incentive keep in mind I just apprenticed my son to
Yakushi-san. I imagine he would react strongly to anyone hurting his
charge.”
"How did you trick
Kenshin into taking your brat under his wing? He's turned down a
dozen apprentices that I know of.”
"It was a lifetime
favor. Why do you think I'm so determined it works out? Now go find
that actor and make sure he'll keep his mouth shut. And not by
killing him.” The daimyo turned and strode out of the hall, leaving
his guard to figure out how to undo the damage.
* * *
By the time night fell
Hiroshi was more exhausted than he thought possible. The afternoon
passed in a blur, 'falling training' mostly consisted of Kenshin
throwing him into things at high speed. His bruises were bruised. All
he could think of was a long soak followed by sleeping for a week.
When he failed to appear
for dinner Kenshin went looking. The last thing he needed was his
apprentice escaping from his home on the first day. When he went to
check the bathhouse he found his wayward pupil sound asleep in the
furo, head barely above the water line. His fingers hovered above
black clouds and half a flower intricately inked on an exposed
shoulder. Of all the secrets his student held, this was one he never
expected. “Oi, wake up, time for dinner.”
Hiroshi woke in a world
of pain. The hot water did little to relieve the ache of muscles
pushed far beyond their usual bounds. “Huh, what?”
"I would not have
expected you to have a tattoo. Such a rebellious student I've managed
to end up with. Sakura at dawn, and done by an irezumi master.”
"It's permanent, of
course I went to a master.” Kenshin's gentle teasing picked at his
student's last thread of patience. “Is nothing in my life private
anymore?”
"Not from me.”
The smug smile on his
master's face pushed the normally reserved Hiroshi over the edge.
“You have got to be kidding me. As if being relegated to this
mausoleum isn't enough, now you're spying and prying for my father as
well?”
"My questions are my
own,” Kenshin retorted. “And what I find is for me as well. You
flatter yourself. A boy like you isn't worthy of such a grand plot.
Now get out and dress, our dinner is getting cold.” He reached out
to give Hiroshi a hand, only to have his arm slapped away.
"I'm perfectly capable
of getting out of a tub on my own. Now turn around, I don't need you
ogling me.”
"You think an awful lot
of yourself. Why sakura? I would have pegged you for a dragon or
perhaps yokai. Something more obviously manly, in any event.”
"It was Jun's
suggestion,” Hiroshi admitted. “He thought it suited my
personality.”
"Indeed.” Kenshin
stepped behind his student, tracing the pattern with calloused
fingers. “It is beautiful. New life from the darkness. I approve.”
"Thank you, I guess.
Not that I need your approval.”
"Sit.” Kenshin pushed
his student down onto the bathing stool, then knelt in front of him.
“I want you to be able to walk tomorrow.” Strong fingers began
kneading tired feet, pushing into tender arches until they relaxed.
“Next time tell me when I'm pushing you too hard.”
"I did. You laughed at
me.”
"My
apologies, I forget not everyone works themselves as hard as I do.”
Knotted calves gradually eased under the insistent pressure, and
Hiroshi groaned, curling into the painful bliss. “After we eat I'll
give you some lineament for your hands. It will toughen the skin so
it doesn't tear. For now we will alternate days, swordsmanship one
day, hand to hand the next. Just until you get used to the routine.”
"I'll try harder, I
promise.”
"You did very well for
your first day. I just set my expectations too high. We will find a
balance, I'm sure.” Kenshin stood and hoisted him to his feet.
“Better? Do you think you can walk to the table?”
"I'll manage. Give me a
few minutes to dress and I'll join you.”
Over dinner they spoke of
inconsequential things. Their mutual disdain for the pageantry of
rule had them giggling into their cups at Hiroshi's uncanny mimicry
of some of the daimyo's advisors. For the first time Kenshin thought
that, perhaps, this arrangement might work out and he let go of some
of his lingering resentment over the change in his routine.
* * *
Hiroshi
was exhausted, yet sleep eluded him. All his plans of sleeping for a
week fled the moment he stretched out on the futon. Instead of
wandering in the land of dreams his mind kept flashing pictures of
his new mentor. His cock lay hot and heavy against his thigh,
stirring to life at the thought of the corded muscles of Kenshin's
back. Yet again he couldn't help but wonder if his new master's ass
was as impressively sculpted. So
he's attractive. Lots of men are. Jun is devoted to me. I owe him my
fidelity.
Despite his internal
monologue, the nagging thoughts of Kenshin unguarded, eyes dark with
lust and twinkling with amusement, niggled at his control. Hiroshi's
cock twitched against his thigh, filling with blood against his
wishes. He wrapped his hand around his straining erection, a squeeze
and a single stroke from balls to tip had him arching off the futon
with a passionate sigh. Another slow stroke further inflamed his
passion. The thought of his new master overhearing him masturbating
evoked a strange mixture of lust and embarrassment, and he bit his
lip in an effort to stifle any further suspicious noises.
His eyes fluttered shut,
his cock swelling as he pictured Jun sprawled naked on tangled
sheets. Despite his intentions, the man he pictured grew taller and
heavier, sleekly feminine features growing more rugged the closer he
came to orgasm.
* * *
Kenshin listened to the
sound of his apprentice pleasuring himself, oblivious to the fact
that paper walls did nothing to keep his actions private. The steady
strokes and occasional low moan only served to remind him just how
long it had been since he'd sought release with another. Hiroshi had
made his displeasure with such an arrangement between them crystal
clear. As unappealing as the prospect was, perhaps the time had come
to seek out a temporary assignation. His friends had spoken highly of
the local pleasure district. Anything would be preferable to spending
his nights listening to the sound of masturbation.
He tried to remember the
last time he had even thought about sex, let alone touched himself.
In the first few years after his master's death it had been a common
practice. But as time passed he found his thoughts turning in that
direction less and less. As best he could recall, it had been at
least a year, possibly more.
So
it's settled,
he decided. Tomorrow
I will go and see if the willow world holds anyone of interest to me.
Friday, March 25, 2016
Onna Bugeisha - Chapter Four
Sorry today's installment is a bit late - I have been on the run since before my eyes were actually open this morning. Still, better late than never (and it is still Friday). So, without further ado, on to chapter four.
Dai Yon Shou
"This will be your
quarters.” Kenshin slid the fusama aside to reveal a large room,
floored with fresh tatami, with several zabuton arranged around a low
table. The butsudon held a simple vase with a willow branch. Shoji
panels on the far wall had been opened onto the central courtyard,
highlighting the view of an elaborate koi pond and single weeping
sakura tree. It was everything Hiroshi admired; simple, restful, and
decorated with exquisite taste. “Get settled in. We will talk more
over the evening meal. If you need anything my housekeeper is at your
service.”
Hiroshi nodded. “Would
you mind if I looked around a bit?”
"This is your home now.
If you have need of me I will be in the dojo.”
The fusama had no sooner
shut than it slid open, servants delivering several elaborately
lacquered chests filled with all the belongings from both his
father's house and Jun's simple rooms. The message was clear, his old
life was over.
He ignored the remains of
his past, choosing to explore his new prison. The house was set in
the traditional square pattern. The front wing contained public
rooms, pristine tatami and the sparse but elegant decoration hinted
that these were rarely used. His room and the room of his new master
were in the right hand wing. To the left he found the kitchen and
servants quarters. The inner walls all slid open to reveal the
courtyard, the outer walls opened onto an encircling hallway whose
outer walls also opened onto an engawa. In the summer all the doors
could be opened to allow cross breezes, keeping it cool and
comfortable even when the weather turned sultry.
Across the back stretched
a massive training hall. Racks of weaponry and highly polished floors
made it clear this room was well-used. Hiroshi watched as his new
master went through a series of elaborate kata, each movement crisply
precise, his gaze turned inward. His eyes lingered on Kenshin,
tracing broad shoulders down a muscular back to a narrow waist. He
couldn't help but wonder if the ass hidden inside baggy hakama was as
well-developed as the rest of the man. Hiroshi shook his head to
clear it of such thoughts, trying to hit on the man in charge of his
life was probably the quickest way to guarantee he'd never again be
free.
Kenshin finished the last
of his kata, bowing to the shrine at the end of the room before
turning to address his new pupil. “Are you getting settled in
alright?”
"As well as can be
expected on such short notice. Once my father decides on something
there isn't much time to wrap your mind around it. In his world delay
is a weakness.”
"It was as unexpected
for me as it was for you,” Kenshin admitted. “I will try to make
the transition as painless as possible.”
"So what, exactly, will
we be doing?” Hiroshi knew he should have paid more attention to
his father's lectures. The martial arts had always struck him as
vulgar. When talk turned to battle he usually retreated into his own
mind. Now he found himself at a disadvantage.
"How much training have
you had?”
"The minimum I could
get away with.” The admission wasn't easy. A man of his age and
position should be competent in all the disciplines, yet Hiroshi
could barely wield a blade. “I can ride well enough, and I've
mastered some basic sword kata. Beyond that I'm hopeless.”
"I hardly imagine
you're hopeless. Uninterested, perhaps.” Kenshin turned sharp eyes
on his new apprentice. Hiroshi certainly had the physique to be a
superior warrior, not terribly tall, but nicely proportioned and
well-muscled. In hand to hand combat he would have a decided
advantage. “Tomorrow morning we will start training in earnest.
First we should talk about expectations, yours and mine.”
"I expect to be
miserable.”
"I sincerely hope not.
Your father expects me to train you, but I have no intention of being
a tyrant about it. We will assess your strengths and work on those
areas. At your age anything else would require too much
backtracking.”
Hiroshi slumped against a
support pillar, relief rushing through him. “Thank kami. I was
afraid I would punished for my lack of skill.”
"That would be
counterproductive. Neither children or adults learn well from
punishment.” Kenshin rubbed the back of his neck, unsure how to
open up the more personal part of the discussion. “What do you know
of masters and their apprentices?”
"Not much. Most of the
apprentices I've seen have been boys. I've never heard of anyone
taking a student of my age.”
"That's true. Usually
by the time a boy reaches adulthood he goes off on his own, although
master and apprentice generally remain close. In your case, however,
your father believes this arrangement will be beneficial to both of
us.”
"Well, I can certainly
see the benefit to him.” Hiroshi tried, and failed, to mask the
bitterness washing through him. “And I guess it will be of benefit
to me, assuming, that is, I ever find myself in a battle. I have to
admit I am more likely to run in the opposite direction. What I don't
see is any benefit to you. An unwanted intruder who will take up most
of your time and energy isn't something most people would wish for.”
Kenshin took a deep
breath to steady himself. “There is another aspect to our
relationship. One which your father considered before asking me to
undertake your training. Have you heard of wakashudo?”
"Old men taking
advantage of boys.” The disdain Hiroshi felt toward such a thing
was obvious.
"Masters and
apprentices sharing love,” Kenshin corrected him. “I had such a
relationship with my master and I assure you, I was never taken
advantage of. I loved him and he loved me.”
"I am neither a child
or a woman. I will not be used in such a fashion.”
"So you prefer to give?
I know about your dalliance. Sex with a man is no mystery to you.”
"I am a man, of course
I prefer the dominant position.” Hiroshi straightened, preparing to
defend himself from being forcibly taken. “So, you see, we are at
an impasse.”
"I will not pressure
you into anything,” Kenshin assured him. “Although your father
hoped that I could turn you away from your lover.”
"My beloved is
beautiful and graceful, a talented performer in and out of bed. I can
only hope he will forgive me for abandoning him without even a
goodbye.”
"Some things are beyond
our control. Surely your lover can understand that. If not, perhaps
he is not worthy of your devotion.”
"It is I who am not
worthy.” Hiroshi dropped his head, stress was muddling his thoughts
at the moment he could least afford it. “I am resigned to this
apprenticeship. In time, perhaps, we will become friends. I could
certainly use one.”
"That is all anyone
could ask for.” Kenshin stepped forward and clasped forearms with
his new student. “Enough talk. I, for one, could use a good soak. I
will be in the furo if you care to join me.”
* * *
Jun woke in an unfamiliar
room with a stranger leaning over him. Panic surged and he struggled
to push himself away from the threat.
"Don't.” A hand
pushed down on his chest, keeping him in place. The image in front of
him resolved into a wizened old woman. “I have done what I can, but
you are still hurt. Stay as still as you can so you don't undo all my
work.”
"Thank you for your
kindness, but I will be fine on my own,” Jun insisted.
"You were near death.
Relax and let yourself recover. No one will bother you here.” She
lifted a small bowl to his lips. “Drink, it will help with the
pain.”
He downed the contents,
questions bursting in his brain. “Who are you? Where am I?”
"My name is Aoi. I'm a
healer. Your neighbor saw the soldiers leaving your house and went to
check on you. It is good he brought you here, without treatment you
would surely have died.” She turned away and ladled broth into a
bowl. “I had almost given up hope. It has been several days, and
this is the first time you have been conscious.”
"I owe you a debt I
cannot repay.” He sunk back into the futon and shut his eyes,
feigning sleep while he contemplated his new turn of circumstance.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Onna Bugeisha - Chapter Three
And now - on to chapter three...
Interlude
Amaterasu and Tsukiyomi
soon fell into a comfortable relationship. For several hours every
morning and evening they lingered together, exchanging ideas about
how they could best improve the lives of the creatures living on
their islands. Susanoo refused to join in their discussions,
preferring to work his wiles on individuals and reveling in the chaos
they introduced into his siblings' plan. Inside, however, he hankered
for their acceptance. This conflict drove him to ever greater heights
in an attempt to garner their father's undivided attention. He spent
his days looking for the lynch-pin, the one human who could throw the
entire nation into turmoil. Once he had his pawn, then he could make
his move.
Dai San Shou
Jun was pulled from his
misery by the sound of footsteps on the engawa. “You came back.”
He ran out into the hall to greet his lover, only to find the entry
filled with soldiers. “How dare you break into a lady's home,” he
hissed. “Leave at once.”
"We are here to collect
Murakami-san's belongings. Step aside or we will have to restrain
you,” the leader of the group explained.
Soldiers filled the
space, pawing through chests to create a messy pile of male clothing.
“Stop that.” Jun threw himself against the nearest samurai in an
attempt to snatch back the garments clenched in an armored fist.
"You would be smart not
to fight us,” the leader of the squad insisted. “We would prefer
not to restrain you.”
"Take your hands off
Hiroshi's things. He'll punish you for this insolence.”
"Murakami-san will not
be returning.” The commander's grip on Jun tightened. “His father
will no longer tolerate this assignation. Hiroshi is being sent to
live with Yakushi-sama. It is past time for him to be trained in the
way of budo. Do yourself a favor and forget you ever met, for it is
certain you will never meet again.”
"Hiroshi would never
abandon me,” Jun sobbed. “We are eternal lovers. We swore never
to be parted.”
"That is not a promise
he was free to make to a woman like you. The daimyo's heir needs a
match worthy of his family name. No street whore, no matter how
lovely, could ever hope to win his hand.”
"I am no whore.” Jun
rose to his full height, glaring imperiously at the men surrounding
him.
"You aren't a woman,
either,” the guard realized. “Hey, this girl is a man.” The
atmosphere in the room turned dark. The samurai amused themselves by
shoving Jun back and forth between them, stripping off layers with
each pass. Finally he was naked except for remnant face paint smeared
across his cheek and a single kanzashi caught in the tangle of his
hair.
"You'll pay for this.”
Jun found himself pressed onto the tatami, rough hands leaving
bruises on soft flesh. His protests faded under the onslaught, all
his energy focused on weathering the storm.
One by one the soldiers
took their turn, filling Jun's mouth or ass. He gagged as semen
blocked his throat, thrashing and coughing. His lips were turning
blue when he finally vomited up the contents of his stomach on the
man currently using him. The punch to the head that followed rendered
him unconscious, not that his abusers cared.
When the last of them had
taken his pleasure they gathered Hiroshi's things and left. The
battered man on the tatami would never again be thought beautiful.
And deep in his ocean lair, Susanoo smiled.
* * *
Mai
added water to the inkstick, swirling the mixture with her brush
until the consistency was perfect. She eyed the blank page with
trepidation. This was her one chance to convince Kenshin to meet, a
mistake could leave her relegated to the women's quarters in the
Shogun's palace. I'd
rather be dead.
She made a mental note to visit the herbalist, surely there was no
harm in being prepared for the worst.
She shook her head to
clear it, shutting her eyes and picturing the future she wanted. Then
she lifted the brush and began to write. Defying all logic, she
decided to eschew the flowery phrases and subtle innuendo so favored
by the court. Instead, she spoke from the heart, going into detail
about her dreams. She hoped Kenshin would read between the lines and
realize the plan meant freedom for both of them.
She folded the letter
carefully, melting wax to seal it with her chop. The last thing she
needed was one of her brother's councilors opening her plea. Mai
delivered the sealed message to her attendant, asking that it be
delivered immediately. Then she went to the shrine to light incense
and pray.
"Amaterasu, grant me
this boon. Turn Yakushi-san's heart in my direction. As your daughter
I ask this blessing. In return, I will devote my life to honoring you
and becoming the warrior you need me to be.”
* * *
Hiroshi glared sullenly
through the window of the carriage, ignoring the scenery in favor of
plotting revenge on his father. He was pulled from his introspection
when they turned off the road down a drive lined with old pines. He
distantly noted the serenity of his surroundings, carefully manicured
plantings highlighting swirls of sand. Craggy rocks punctuated the
scene, mountains writ small, their texture emphasizing the whole.
The door to the carriage
opened, his guard eying him warily. “Are you coming, or do I need
to carry you?”
"Don't be ridiculous.”
Hiroshi stepped onto the path, unconsciously straightening his
garments. If he had to be here it was best to make a positive
impression. Good behavior would be the quickest path to regaining
some freedom. Thoughts of Jun's disappointed face when he failed to
reappear tore at his heart. He quickly pushed them aside, no point in
dwelling on what he couldn't change.
"Welcome to my home.”
Kenshin bowed politely, deep enough to acknowledge Hiroshi's family
ties, but shallow enough to make it clear who was in charge.
"My apologies for
intruding.” A deeper bow, held a fraction longer, acknowledged the
status quo. “I hope my father hasn't caused you too much trouble.”
"I am honored to be
tasked with training Murakami-sama's only son.” The cryptic
response gave no indication of the samurai's true feelings. “Was
your journey pleasant?”
"As much as any
unexpected travel could be. My father sprang this on me without
warning. I can only hope his lackeys collected all my possessions.”
"Anything missing can
be sent for,” Kenshin assured him. “You will be here for the
forseeable future, I want your stay to be a comfortable one.”
Friday, March 18, 2016
Onna Bugeisha - Chapter Two
I have decided to try and post chapters twice a week, on Tuesdays and Fridays...with luck I shall stay ahead of that schedule! Now, On to Chapter Two
Dai Ni Shou
Mai waited patiently for
the emperor’s attention to turn to her. “Brother, you look
tired.”
"My councilors believe
it is time you were married,” he said without preamble. “The
Shogun is looking for a new consort and they think it best it were
you. It would strengthen his loyalty to our house.”
"I shall not,” she
declared, eyes flashing angrily. “I am not some piece of meat to be
bartered at your whim. The Shogun is old and ugly. Besides, he
already has a wife and a concubine. Surely the sister of the emperor
deserves better than the position of third plaything. Is that really
the future you wish to sentence me to?”
"Do you have a better
suggestion? I am open to other alliances, but it is high time you
were wed.”
"I have thought long
and hard about it,” Mai admitted. “My preference would be never
to marry, but I know that is not an option. Still, there is one man I
would consider.”
"Who is this mysterious
man my sister deems worthy of her attentions? And what benefit does
such a joining bring to our house?”
"Yakushi Kenshin, my
lord. He is the chief retainer of Murakami-sama, a strong warrior
with the ear of his liege. A marriage to him would solidify your ties
with that region. He is also still single. The position of first wife
is certainly more appealing to me.”
"It would be a
marginally acceptable match,” the emperor admitted. “But he has
always avoided the ties of marriage. What makes you think you can
convince him?”
Of course, that had been
part of her plan. The fact that he had no interest in marriage made
it less likely she would be forced into a traditional relationship.
She hoped to convince Kenshin they could form an alliance of
convenience. She would be his wife in appearance only, with no
obligation on his part to visit her bed. In return, he would help her
become stronger and give her the freedom to train openly, perhaps
even fight at his side. Just in case, she had picked a man who would
appeal to any woman – strong, fair of face and relatively young. If
he insisted on consummating the relationship it would not be
offensive. “I believe I have more to offer than the average
candidate,” she replied. “Arrange a meeting and let me try to
convince him, at least.”
"I will consider your
proposal,” the emperor decided. “You will be notified if a
meeting can be arranged. Until then I expect you to consider other
possibilities. One way or another you will be wed this season.”
"Yes, my lord. Thank
you for your patience.”
"You are my sister. I
would like to see you happy, if such a thing is possible.”
Mai made the required
formal prostrations, backing out of the room as quickly as possible
while keeping her face averted to hide the gleeful smirk she could
not contain. Once outside she raced to her rooms, heedless of the
disdainful looks she received from her brother’s concubines as she
passed. She had been subjected to more than enough lectures about how
a woman of her status should behave. The thought of spending her life
wrapped in elaborate silks and tittering behind a fan filled her with
contempt. She had no desire to act the simpering fool, even less so
if it meant she had to suffer a man’s heavy hands and sour breath
in her bed. She would make Kenshin accept her, whatever it took. The
alternative was too grim to contemplate.
*
* *
Kenshin swept through the
corridors of the daimyo’s palace, the look on his face causing
everyone he passed to fall back in fear. It was obvious the powerful
samurai was angry, beyond angry, he was livid with rage, and the
pampered courtiers did not wish to provoke him further. No one wanted
to risk losing their head over something they had no part in.
He roughly yanked the
reins from the servant holding his horse, vaulting into the saddle
and galloping off. As he rode he cursed the kami for his change of
fortune. He passed a small shrine and decided to stop, lighting
incense and clapping his hands three times before bowing his head.
“Amaterasu, you have withdrawn your warmth. Tsukuyomi, you no
longer light the darkness. You have abandoned me to my fate and
delivered me into the hands of your brother Susanoo with his penchant
for chaos and destruction. I curse you and these islands to eternal
darkness. May the yokai come and devour all your faithful. May their
blood run like rivers across this land while I watch and laugh.”
Then he was back on his
horse, speeding for home. The last thing he wanted was his new charge
to arrive before he did.
Once there he gathered
his servants to inform them of Hiroshi’s impending arrival. “He
shall use the rooms next to mine. Have them aired and fresh tatami
laid. We do not wish to make our guest feel unwelcome.”
"No one could look at
that face and feel welcome,” one of the maids whispered.
“Yakushi-sama looks like a storm cloud.”
"How our master looks
or feels is none of your concern,” the housekeeper hissed. “Your
job is to follow his instructions, not meddle in his affairs.
Murakami-sama is an honored guest of our master. Make sure you treat
him as such.”
Kenshin quickly retreated
to his own rooms, his mood improving as soon as he exchanged the too
formal kimono for his more usual hakama. Once he stopped to think
about it, the situation didn’t seem nearly as dire. He tried to
picture his new charge, but the only memories he could conjure were
of a small boy in a grass-stained kimono with a smile like the sun.
*
* *
Jun studied his
reflection in the small hand mirror, tilting his head from side to
side to make sure the illusion was perfect. “How do I look?”
"You look beautiful, as
always,” Hiroshi assured him. Indeed, with his makeup applied and
dressed in layers of silk, Jun could rival any courtesan. “Are you
off to the theater, then?”
"No, silly. I'm going
with you.”
An icy frisson crept up
Hiroshi's spine. Jun might be beautiful, but the thought of passing
him off as a woman to his father was one he couldn't contemplate.
“That would not be wise. If you are discovered we will both suffer
for it. Just wait here for me, I will be back soon.”
"But if he thinks
you've found someone he will stop pushing you to marry. I do not wish
to lose you to another.” Jun pressed himself against his lover,
using all his skill to convince Hiroshi to go along with his plan.
The heady scent of
sandalwood and sakura left Hiroshi breathless. It was all he could do
to fight the urge to unwrap the layers hiding his lover from view and
carry him back to bed. For a moment he was lost in contemplation,
picturing that perfect mask smeared across pristine sheets. The
consequences of being late to a meeting with his father, though,
outweighed his burgeoning erection. “It is impossible. Even if he
were to believe your disguise, you lack the pedigree he demands. I
will deal with my father. I've managed to evade his matchmaking this
long, I'm sure today will be no different.”
Jun's smile slid into a
pout. “But I get so lonely when you're away. You wouldn't want me
to have to seek another's company.”
"Threatening me isn't
going to change my mind.” The blatant manipulation turned regret
into anger. “Perhaps it is time I find a more suitable consort.”
Hiroshi pushed his lover away to continue dressing, pulling on his
heavily embroidered kamishimo and sliding his swords into the proper
place. And then he was gone.
The mirror smashed
against the wall, followed by an assortment of bottles and boxes as
Jun vented his fury on the contents of his dressing table. Rage
dissipated and turned to tears. The illusion broke, leaving a weeping
mess crumpled in its wake.
*
* *
"You summoned me?”
Hiroshi knelt before his father, head bowed subserviently.
"Your rebellion has
gone on long enough,” the daimyo declared. “I have made
arrangements for you to apprentice with one of my samurai.”
"I respectfully request
you reconsider. I am far too old for such an arrangement. It would be
unseemly.” Inside Hiroshi was panicking. An apprenticeship would
put an end to his freedom. Instead of long lazy days in the arms of
his lover the future would be filled with hours of tedious practice
and meditation under the eyes of a dour warrior.
"What
is unseemly is your behavior. Did you think me blind, that I wouldn't
notice your dalliance with that actor? You will do as I say, today. I
have already sent some men to gather your belongings and take them to
your new home.” The daimyo was unmoved by his son's protests. In
his heart he hoped Hiroshi would find happiness, but he couldn't
allow that wish to compromise his actions.
"And if I refuse?”
"Refusal is not an
option. You will do as I command. Go willingly or suffer the insult
of being bound and delivered. The choice is yours.”
Hiroshi briefly
considered resisting, if only for the pleasure of seeing his father
discomfited. The daimyo would certainly suffer more from the loss of
face caused by him leaving under duress. But then he realized
arriving at his new home bound and gagged would eliminate any chance
at freedom. Perhaps, if he cooperated, he would be able to slip away
and at least bid his lover farewell. Regret threatened to overwhelm
him. If he had known what awaited he would never have passed up a
last chance to lay with the man who had captured his heart. “I will
go willingly. Anywhere is better than here.”
The daimyo nodded to the
waiting guards. They flanked Hiroshi, leading him out of the hall to
the carriage that would deliver him to his future.
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